Strained Contingency

Already?

Exams are finally over. This means that school starts up again on Monday and that’s not cool. I don’t even want to know my results. This time I KNOW I’ve done badly. It’s like if you were a good swimmer and you had a personal best of 30 seconds, then when it comes down to the actual race you end up getting smashed by the competition and despite your PB, end up with a time that reads 2 minutes 50. I know there’s not really anything I can do about it now, I’ll just have to get the results and deal with them, however hard that may be. Sometimes I kinda wish I was dumb and didn’t know what I was capable of, that way I wouldn’t feel so disappointed or put so much pressure on myself to do well.

It’s back to work tomorrow for the first time in about a month, and if I wasn’t saving for whatever it is I’m saving for, I’d quit. There are no words to describe how much I hate my job. On a positive note, Cassie will be coming in at nine, so I’ll at least get to work with her for a bit. I can’t stand about 95% of the people I work with, thankfully Cassie falls into the remaining 5%.

Well anyway, I should probably go and dry my hair now…and get dressed. I’ve been on the treadmill for the last hour, done my weights and had my shower. I’ll probably just wind down tonight with a movie as I have to get up early in the morning. I’m so not looking forward to work tomorrow.

posted by Ria @ 7:50 pm Comments: 2

Did I say something funny?

I had this hilariously good dream last night. I was so good that I didn’t even mind being woken up by my alarm clock, and trust me I HATE that alarm clock. I can’t remember it all in its entirety, so I won’t even try to explain it but holy crap it was random. Patrick was in it… I haven’t seen that guy in years! It’s hilarious though, every time I think a bout it I get this ridiculous smirk across my face. And I know that I must look like the biggest tool, every conversation I had today in which the smirk made an appearance, the person I would be talking to would lose track of what they were saying and look at me with a puzzled expression. Haha I’m smirking right now…

I’ve been so busy lately, and it’s not the good kind of busy, it’s the Argh! kind of busy. I’ve got so much stuff to do its killing me. I guess I’ll keep this short; I’ve done enough procrastinating today.

posted by Ria @ 9:07 pm Comments: 0